I’ve always believed that it’s nearly impossible to change after the age of 20. Sure you will grow and transcend through the stages of life, but a complete change? Being a different person and changing part of your personality, that’s ingrained into your being…your soul? I say again (this time with more gusto) … Seems pretty impossible.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Unless (of course) you bump your head, causing a couple of hemorrhages in you frontal lobe… but then again, it would have to be a precise and specific spot, that gets damaged. Why do I then, so badly, want to believe that it can be done? Do I need to believe it, or do I simply not want to admit(to myself), that I don’t give a fuck, and can’t be bothered, whether it can be done or not? After 45 years of going through the motions of life, I do not want to be filled with angst, jealousy and the psycho paranoia, that’s associated with relationships in your teenage years. Been there… Done that… Got a whole wardrobe of t-shirts… Just saying.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
At this moment, I’m feverishly grabbing at every slither, of an excuse available, in order to convince myself…. that I can believe him… that he is different now….that after nearly 60 years, all his shitty personality traits have vanished? As if waved away by a magical wand… Poof\ud83c\udf2a Or as he claims…he changed by choice and his strong self control will prevent him from doing it again,…..Yes, yes… I know! I’m a stupid, fat, na\u00efve woman, in her forties, and most likely will get burned… Likely??? Most definitely, I will get burned! But still….still I cling to his words, and believe….. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Well, I’m jumping into this with open eyes. Only time will tell. I’ve lived my life by the words CRASH & BURN<\/strong>…lets see what happens. Who knows, maybe I jump and end up flying. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I’ve always believed that it’s nearly impossible to change after the age of 20. Sure you will grow and transcend through the stages of life, but a complete change? Being a different person and changing part of your personality, that’s ingrained into your being…your soul? I say again (this time with more gusto) … Seems […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2042,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"pagelayer_contact_templates":[],"_pagelayer_content":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[12],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1462","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-ramblings"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1462","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1462"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1462\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2043,"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1462\/revisions\/2043"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2042"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1462"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1462"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1462"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
Getting back to the subject of changing personality flaws, at a late stage in life. Is it even possible? Come on! Let’s be honest! Will a psychopath or sociopath, ever be able to get rid of the personality traits, that classified them as such? Can a Narcissist suddenly develop sincerity, and learn to care and love someone, other than himself? Can an adulterer, suddenly stop, and be true to one individual? Am I to believe, that a personality – developed, fed and nurtured, over a span of more than half a decade – can change just like that… Can you see my struggle? Can you grasp my inner turmoil? Especially when this so-called ‘change<\/strong>‘ involves someone I love and care for deeply?<\/p>\n\n\n\n