Sitting in bed on a lazy Saturday. Awesome weather outside…overcast gray heaven, not too hot, not too cold, beautiful view from my bedroom window\u2026perfect! Playing around on YouTube and discovered a channel with young guys reacting to vintage songs\ud83c\udfb6\u2026just my type of music, being ancient and all \ud83d\ude44 I’ve watched them reviewing some Janice Joplin, Guns \u2018n Roses, Phil Collins\u2026and many more. Old songs taking me back to various parts of my past, filling me with memories of happiness and sadness\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And then….they play a song filling me with so much emotion and memories from various stages of my life. The only way I can explain the song is that it\u2019s literally a bucket filled to the brim with raw emotion, spilling and overflowing with\u2026my life! Just a small town girl… Livin’ in a lonely world\u2026She took the midnight train goin’ anywhere<\/strong><\/em>\u2026F@ck \u201cDon\u2019t Stop Believing\u201d<\/em><\/strong> \u2013 not only performed by Journey<\/em><\/strong>… but my journey<\/span>! All of a sudden, I am diving deep into memories of my previous life, remembering friends and adventures, turning my Saturday into a day of reminiscing melancholy\u2026drowning in a pool of yesterday.<\/p>\n\n\n\n You see it\u2019s difficult to explain, and I know that I just loose all you, \u2018normies\u2019 as soon as I try to put it into words\u2026.My personality is MIA, my working and short-term memory is up to Sh*t, but a lot of my long-term memory is still intact (even more vivid) and the feelings experienced with it, but belonging to a different person\u2026the Queen. The same experiences now, will not give me the same feelings and emotions, because I am a different person. You see, I lost you already, am I right? \ud83e\udd74 In short, it is those feelings and emotions I miss, not the experience per se, you know what I mean? I miss feeling excitement, best friend camaraderie and naughty shenanigans\u2026 happiness\ud83d\ude14<\/p>\n\n\n\n I lost so many of the \u201cfeelings\u201d I always associated with songs\u2026You know what I\u2019m talking about? Everyone has various songs in the library of their mind, that will immediately transport them to a significant time and place in their life connected with certain emotions. I did however keep a few of those songs (No \u201cNormie\u201d \u2013 I don\u2019t know why or how\u2026It just is\ud83e\udd37\ud83c\udffb\u200d\u2640\ufe0f) and Don\u2019t stop believing<\/strong><\/em> is one of them! I am grateful for that \ud83d\udc9a I am even grateful that I can sit here today… with awesome weather… teardrops slowly escaping from my eyes…rolling silently down my cheeks…smiling and remembering my past.<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Sitting in bed on a lazy Saturday. Awesome weather outside…overcast gray heaven, not too hot, not too cold, beautiful view from my bedroom window\u2026perfect! Playing around on YouTube and discovered a channel with young guys reacting to vintage songs\ud83c\udfb6\u2026just my type of music, being ancient and all \ud83d\ude44 I’ve watched them reviewing some Janice Joplin, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2032,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"pagelayer_contact_templates":[],"_pagelayer_content":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[4,12],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-767","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-consequences-of-that-night","category-ramblings"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/767","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=767"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/767\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2033,"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/767\/revisions\/2033"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2032"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=767"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=767"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ramblingrabbit.co.za\/di\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=767"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}