I had such an awesome time the last couple of days. My eldest daughter visited and we spent some time just lying in bed watching YouTube, chatting, sitting in the sun, painting and of course (most important🙄) some retail therapy. Yes, I know it was nothing exciting or adventurous, but to someone who basically lives like a hermit, it was thrilling and full of excitement (even though it drained my batteries quite a bit). But then again, things of tremendous value are often quite small – like shiny, little diamonds.
But…Yes, there always seems to be a ‘but’ statement after every positive thing or experience in life. I have had a crappy morning thus far! Woken up by a phone call and trying to sound awake (Urgh! don’t you just hate that) and then my youngest daughter asked if she can bake a cake…and I just know that I am looking forward to a giant mountain of dishes and kitchen counters full of spilled ingredients. And then the worst happened…the wi-fi dropped 😲and just like that – no Facebook, no Netflix, no YouTube, no Showmax – nothing! Nada! 😱 It took me a whole HOUR to fix it (I don’t know what I did, but I’m taking credit for it…) second-guessing myself the whole time, not being sure whether the password I’ve been using for years…contains a 6 or a 5…repeatedly pushing random buttons on the remote and trying out every swear word I know in English and Afrikaans – BTW Afrikaans has way more satisfying offensive words…
But…Wouldn’t you know, apparently every bad thing in life also have a ‘but’ statement because that too (like happiness) does not last forever! The Wi-Fi is working and I have not been to the kitchen recently, but I can smell absolutely divine aromas of coffee and chocolate wafting from the oven and in my mind’s eye, I see my daughter washing the dishes and wiping the counters…I’m allowed to some wishful thinking, OK! In short, the bad vibes did not last that long and I am basking in the rays of my warm, positive mood again. I wish all negative, dark feelings in my life could be that short, but I do try to always remember that there will always be a ‘but’ eventually…
Some days, not enough to be honest, I feel like I do today – reborn, full of gratefulness and admiration for the tiniest things! Like the feeling you get when listening to the sound of wind rustling through the leaves…or drinking in the deep cobalt blue of the sky on a hot summer’s day…or the crackling of fire licking the wood on a cold winter’s night… I feel like Klaus after being possessed by Ben (spoiler alert for all Umbrella Academy fans) walking in a daze, smelling a flower, tasting an orange and digging his toes in the garden soil while moaning softly “I love dirt..” and then lying down on the ground, making dirt angels with the girl he adores…or sometimes it could just be the smell of a coffee-chocolate cake, baking in the oven😁
